surrender

Why am I angry? . Although I have you Troy, I feel so desperately lonely. The anger and betrayal I feel about what has occured is still with me in some private and silent domain. I was safe and secure before you went down that road and I know it took me a while to tell you how it was destroying me, but you must understand that It wasn`t easy to live in that silence.


I felt us beginning to fade and all my security being robbed and violated. I often feel now that I`m trying to give you my heart but it`s just too little too late. I felt it desperately while we were intimate only hours ago. I was just driving myself to distraction and nothing was making it right. I am weak and it`s the 'ache' that makes me like that.

I want to surrender all this pain and begin again...but how ?