running

Its currently 11:30 pm and very cold outside. I just got in from a run. There is seriously nothing like running under the dark canopy of the stars in the night sky. I have alot on my mind and it`s the only thing apart from taking drugs which can act as a relaxant to such a mind as mine which finds it very difficult to shut down. I am 'positive' after a run like that and feel more relaxed to face the some times harrowing quiet of the night.

Although the surrounds are so deatheningly silent my mind is often a crowded space of the noise of uncontrollable thoughts swirling around my head like dirty north winds. When I miss the opportunity to do the running and thus experience the exaustion, it can get to me- just like poisonous pollution..taking hold of every fibre torturing my soul . The doctors have got it all wrong in my opinion. The best drug for me and people like me is sweat and rigorous physical exaustion...it really works ! I`m ready to face the night now...