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My head Is aching.At times its so difficult to escape these thoughts and break through this enclosure.I hear people speak and I know they mean well but to listen and act on what others are saying is just too complicated when im this state. A state of barroness on cold dirt..an absolute nothingness....No physical No mental no emotional just a big ditch of nothing.

With the rising sunshine im out for a jog.. I regain sense of my breathing..and back into life.Thoughts swirl around my mind with every step and every beat i feel within the cage of my heart. Still fresh from the nights tortures I'm in desperate need to rid my self of this heaviness and in side my mind I see what matters...it is kindness..what we share in the quieter moments what you wisper to me when i drop in the sheets. You keep me from the shell closing in around me.When It feels as though the dirt In that ditch has no life you come along and water it with a simple warm touch and welcoming words.The earth beneath flourishes with life and beauty and hence the ability to feel and sense returns.