Empty room
When there is no touch sensation,nothing but a mind which controls the body and its palpatations an ache emerges.. a feeling so raw.I don't feel great. My children are here which help ground me however I shield my crying eyes from their view.Within my walls I feel broken.Friendships etc all around me, people who are beautiful whom I wouldnt trade for the sun, see not this side of me. Inside I feel like an empty room, no excitations, just a complete sombreness without history, it's solitaire. I am alone with my desire lost somewhere.. I cant find my way back. I feel numb.Its so dominating at times that I cant breathe.
posted by consise10 @ 1:16 AM
16 Comments:
At Tuesday, July 25, 2006 11:25:00 AM,
grey matters said…
hello. grey here. I loved this post. I understand that feeling clearly. Hope you are ok. Iposted today about running from demons and towards dreams. Hope you are well.
At Tuesday, July 25, 2006 3:34:00 PM,
consise10 said…
Yea,thanks for your comment grey Ill have to check out what you wrote because right now I feel consumed by my demons..Nice of you to drop by.
At Wednesday, July 26, 2006 3:16:00 AM,
Fred said…
I'll bet if you allow a friend or family member to see the side of you that's hidden, it may help. Sometimes a second opinion does a world of good.
At Thursday, July 27, 2006 1:41:00 AM,
Iain Dughlais said…
Alone with my desire. That sounds scary. :S
At Thursday, July 27, 2006 12:49:00 PM,
consise10 said…
Fred,It's not even a remote possibility..but I understand where you are coming from with that one,thanks for your comment I really appreciate it ;-)
iain,when you take the phrase on it's own like that it is!Thanks for visiting :-}
At Wednesday, August 02, 2006 8:52:00 AM,
Tim Rice said…
Hi, consise10. It is hard to find some one with whom one can share deep feelings face to face. The times in my life when I had such a relationship I've been deeply blessed. But keep reaching out to others. I've found one never knows when the relationship building one has done will flower.
At Thursday, August 03, 2006 9:26:00 AM,
consise10 said…
Thanks for visiting and your comments I really appreciate it Tim.
At Friday, August 04, 2006 7:55:00 PM,
Autumn Storm said…
Once again, you capture the essence to let everyone feel it. Apart, empty with nowhere to reach to yet wanting to be reached, lost to everyone and especially yourself. D, you break my heart with your words and yet I feel your great strength there too and I just have to believe in every fibre, you being you won't rest, you will find release.
At Saturday, August 05, 2006 2:56:00 PM,
consise10 said…
Yea Autumn,It's just something so overwhelming at times that I have to let it be known in some kind of creative way .When it's made concrete then after wards It's like 'wow'how did I ever arrive there and feel like that? It's like drawring the chains which bind me to my darkness and then
seeing all the shades of grey deep within. Does that makes sense?
Thanks for your empathic response I really appreciate it Autumn.
At Friday, August 11, 2006 7:39:00 AM,
Autumn Storm said…
Absolutely - what I get from that mainly is embrace, to truly accept, welcome even every emotion regardless of how dark it is. What's more, it is the only way to ever move them on so that they do not become all-consuming but last only as long as they ought to.
At Sunday, August 13, 2006 11:43:00 AM,
grey matters said…
new post from me today. check when you have time. grey
At Sunday, August 13, 2006 2:13:00 PM,
consise10 said…
Thanks for taking the time to visit and show interest.I really appreciate it Autumn ;')
Have just visited Grey and love the way you express yourself!
At Thursday, August 24, 2006 5:47:00 PM,
consise10 said…
Hey Colleen, welcome back :-)). As usual your words are wise, and I always appreciate the effort you put into reading my thoughts and your responses here.
Hey Loz,thanks for dropping by :-)
At Friday, August 25, 2006 9:09:00 PM,
Autumn Storm said…
Happy weekend!! :-)
At Saturday, August 26, 2006 12:00:00 PM,
consise10 said…
Hey thanks Autumn :-)))May yours be a bright one too. Thanks for dropping by!
At Sunday, August 27, 2006 8:44:00 AM,
Tim Rice said…
Just dropping by to say, Hi!
Hard to believe that summer is almost over here in Pennsylvania. Before long, I'll be looking for autumn's leaves. :)
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