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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

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Troy...You once laughed when you heard me say that you would be playing solitaire, and swinging uneasy in that chair of yours. It never entered your mind did it ? You told me I was mistakened. Well let me tell you something.. it wont be me that wakes up one morning ordering cofee just for one. You seem to have something I lack and although I`ll have to 'scratch my back' all by by lonesome it may be the liberating choice I need to make. I warned you before that if you scorned me again I`d be singing the single maidens prayer, and you would wish you were here to get back inside my skin. I`ll be going soon and when I return I hope this fucking crap will become more clearer...

posted by consise10 @ 12:16 AM  

9 Comments:

  • At Wednesday, February 08, 2006 9:31:00 AM, Blogger Iain Dughlais said…

    a very poetic break up post.

     

  • At Wednesday, February 08, 2006 11:09:00 AM, Blogger Lisa said…

    Some people seem to think that love means you have to continuously take crap from them. But that's so not it. If this person didn't treat you with love, kindness, respect, and appreciation then he obviously isn't good enough for you. Focus on your upcoming trip and the freedom you'll have in March (or April at the latest). :-)

     

  • At Wednesday, February 08, 2006 11:39:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    to use an oft-quoted phrase: "you never know what you've got till it's gone." my ex and I would end up nearly breaking up every fight, but then we'd be chill again... it was pretty funny actually. sometimes I'd want to break up with her and just want her to explode and do it... but we ended up lasting almost 3yrs, and we're still good friends. anyways... he ought to have taken you seriously; that's a mistake I probably would have made too.

    liberation is the highest ideal we can subscribe to, whether it be from a lazy or offencively horrid lover or a firing squad.

    everything is clearer on the other side. take some time to reflect on it, and come back fresh.

     

  • At Wednesday, February 08, 2006 12:58:00 PM, Blogger E in Oz said…

    I read something insightful the other day and I think it applies a little to your situation...

    You know, if a really nice [guy] comes along, he wont see you, [coz you're] down on the floor with some other [guy's] foot on you.

    Singledom can show you all the strength you have inside you that you were always led to believe came from someone else.

    Also, being alone and being lonely are separate things. One doesn't automatically assume the other. Don't let fear of being lonely hold you back from being alone - coz none of us are ever really alone, no matter how desolate things may look at times.

     

  • At Wednesday, February 08, 2006 2:55:00 PM, Blogger Fred said…

    Time to move on without him. Life will be better.

     

  • At Wednesday, February 08, 2006 11:05:00 PM, Blogger ange said…

    Be strong my friend. I agree with e in oz:"being alone and being lonely are separate things. One doesn't automatically assume the other. Don't let fear of being lonely hold you back from being alone - coz none of us are ever really alone, no matter how desolate things may look at times."

    I am alone. Sometimes i feel lonely. But there are friends and family out there who care. I have become stronger being dependant on myself.And yes, at times i have felt like the world doesn't care...
    Be strong my friend. There will be light at the end of the tunnel!

     

  • At Friday, February 10, 2006 9:32:00 PM, Blogger consise10 said…

    Thanks for visiting iain ;-]

    For all the love,kindness and appreciation I have felt,the lack of respect is something I definately haven`t been able to come to terms with lisa. I will take this trip and use it as a period of reflection and time apart from him, to deal with the mixed emotions I have about our union.

    greyor...will definately take the time to reflect You present an interesting perspective... I thankyou.. ((Euxapisto))

    E in oz..aka 'kalliope' Thanks for your thoughtful response. It`s a tricky situation. An incident occured recently which lead me to believe Troy was behind it...hence all the negative emotions of the past were stirred up again..when I thought they were behind us. If I get conclusive evidence he was involved in any of it...I won`t return from my trip..and it will be 'independance day'.

    Fred that picture icon of you makes me grin..thanks for dropping by :-}

    Ange...you come across as a really warm and caring individual,I sense sincerity in your responses and just wanted to acknowlege that. Thankyou for your imput mate (;-}

     

  • At Monday, February 13, 2006 5:02:00 PM, Blogger Silvergirl said…

    Being treated badly and then getting away from it can change your whole view of things and be very freeing. Troy sounds arrogant. I hope you find peace and love, with or without him.

     

  • At Friday, February 17, 2006 7:01:00 PM, Blogger consise10 said…

    Thankyou for visiting silvergirl,I appreciate your imput :-]

     

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