New number
Forget you. I wish I could. Forget what`s happened forget that I bore our blood through my loins. Now they are all that are keeping me here.If it wasnt for you id be soring in a dream taking another hit. Safe in the knowledge that Im defeated and in bliss totally oblivious to you and our created blood.
The little creatures are so innocent. I don`t want to tarnish that. The moment I feel that happening I`d rather be gone from this earth on the plane I ought to be,without you. Gone and forgotten,is what I desire.
I feel changes happening I don`t neccesarily want but know I need.For the sake of life here on this level I will say I want you to save me a place away from all the other clutter. You recently said in your words you already got over yesterday a while ago now. You said I should also cut loose as you have done. How can i ? Forget the hurt and every promise spoken and unspoken. It lingers like darkness all night everlasting. I hear the wispers within knowing that I am gone. I am here physically but not in a sense of existing in harmony. like I`m drifting in and out of spells of emotion of positive and negative contradictions. It`s a long road and the cold hard facts make for a destination unwanted. I think I did the best I could considering...
Forgiveness shall be the flavour of tommorow as we approach a cleansing season of a new number where I hope all will be left right here in the midst of time.
The little creatures are so innocent. I don`t want to tarnish that. The moment I feel that happening I`d rather be gone from this earth on the plane I ought to be,without you. Gone and forgotten,is what I desire.
I feel changes happening I don`t neccesarily want but know I need.For the sake of life here on this level I will say I want you to save me a place away from all the other clutter. You recently said in your words you already got over yesterday a while ago now. You said I should also cut loose as you have done. How can i ? Forget the hurt and every promise spoken and unspoken. It lingers like darkness all night everlasting. I hear the wispers within knowing that I am gone. I am here physically but not in a sense of existing in harmony. like I`m drifting in and out of spells of emotion of positive and negative contradictions. It`s a long road and the cold hard facts make for a destination unwanted. I think I did the best I could considering...
Forgiveness shall be the flavour of tommorow as we approach a cleansing season of a new number where I hope all will be left right here in the midst of time.
9 Comments:
At Thursday, December 22, 2005 3:26:00 AM, Anonymous said…
I like to think moving on is a two way thing. It's just a matter of how good both sides are good at pretending. Despite trying be that better side, I still feel a void somewhere. I'm trying to be selfish as I move on. If he/she decides to throw it away. It's only a matter of time where he/she will feel a little worse than you when you've someone else to cast your attention to. You've to tell yourself, why should I be the one who gives in? Lingering won't get you anywhere. Be an ass if you have to, don't cling onto things or feelings that have failed you.
At Thursday, December 22, 2005 1:15:00 PM, Nic said…
What power in your words consise, I know that you feel that your just slightly keeping your head above water, but realistically thats all we have to do, it wont be long and you will be walking on top because you are strong!
I declare that 2006 is our year consise, I believe that all this will be overturned in the changing of a new year, and sadness will turn in to Joy.
Take Care and have a fantastic Christmas and a safe new year.
Nic xx
At Thursday, December 22, 2005 4:56:00 PM, Anonymous said…
created blood... i really like that, sanguis creatus, αἷμα τετευχός. something must keep you sane, and as they always say, do it for the children if no one else. that glorious astral plane is somewhere you can attain if you try hard enough (in your mind, of course)... although it is a long road to find meaning and happiness on this plane, stick to it, and don't give up, ever. you always have your faithful readers (us), and your children if no one else.
forgiveness is divinely cathartic!
At Sunday, December 25, 2005 2:45:00 AM, Fred said…
Hi Consise, I just wanted to wish you a terrific holiday. Merry Christmas!
At Tuesday, December 27, 2005 12:17:00 PM, Lisa said…
I hope 2006 is a wonderful year for you. I hope that in five years, you look back on this time in your life and feel stronger for it. I hope six months from now you can do that.
At Saturday, December 31, 2005 2:14:00 PM, ange said…
May 2006 be an exciting prosperous year for you.
What a brilliant piece of writing.
Good luck darling.Be strong. Stay positive.
At Sunday, January 01, 2006 6:42:00 AM, Anonymous said…
heya..happy new year! got myself a livejournal now.keep in contact yea?
At Wednesday, January 04, 2006 9:45:00 PM, consise10 said…
Colleen. Thanks for all your interest and 'venting' sure is a therapy in itself!
jem thanks for the advice but I don`t believe finding some one else is the answer for me.You do have a valid point though and I appreciate your imput.Your new blog page is interesting however I think I much enjoyed the 'poetic you'.Take care jem.
Nic,you know what, I don`t know why but when I read your words here I felt all funny and shed a tear.Thankyou and it shall be a better year without doubt.
Thankyou Greyor. I appreciate your imput and encouragement.
Thanks Fred. I hope you and your lovely family all enjoy this festive time together.
Thankyou for all the encouraging words you have spoken here ange, and I also wish you the very best of everything in this new season.
Lisa, I too want to be able to leave it all behind me. That I hope I shall focus on in this new year.
Tenderheart. Thankyou for your interest and participation here.I have been often touched by your ongoing presense here.
Thanks Stanley :-}
Thankyou all so much for the support you have shown me upon reading my journey as documented here in this space.I do sincerely hope you all have a terrific beginning to 2006 and it continues with the very best of good health and joy, extended to your loved ones too. The new number has arrived for me now, and some changes have occured recently which will succeed to lift much of my burden.
To those that read but do not comment I wish you all a great new year and hope that life deals you a fortunate deck of cards with all you desire
At Tuesday, January 10, 2006 2:43:00 PM, consise10 said…
Thankyou Stanley,I appreciate your sentiments.Now How the hell did this spammer get in when I have word verification ?
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